I shaved off all my hair.
Doing this is something that I've thought about before, but I always had a reason not to. 'What if I have a weird head?' 'What if I look like a boy?' 'What if I'm ugly?' But the thought came to me again last week to do this drastic thing. And this time I decided to do it.
I've made a lot of changes in this past year and it felt right. And the idea that the only reason I wasn't doing it was because I was afraid of how other people would perceive me? That seemed really wrong. I want to be confident because of how I feel about myself, not because of what other people are saying about me. I was avoiding doing this big thing to my physical appearance- an aspect of myself I've never been shy about- because I was afraid. Because even with short hair, I had people telling me that I didn't look feminine. So what would they think if I had no hair? I got angry at myself like I didn't deserve to have my hair if I was just going to use it as a shield to avoid making people uncomfortable.
So I did it because I needed to. Because I wanted to and I was tired of talking myself out of it. It's just hair. It will grow back if I want it to. Yes, it was scary. But it was also liberating and amazing and incredible to watch as more and more hair fell. I feel great. And I feel confident. And I feel brave.
I've never been one to base my choices about my image on other people, why start now?
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